My sister came here with most of her stuff still where she lived here before, along with her friends and dog that she can't live without. She says she moves around alot and she can't take this always at home thing (cause she has no friends). So, technically, i got my wish she came to live with us....for two weeks. When she tells me that she's gonna tell dad that she wants to leave, i try not to flinch, or show and concern or a distasteful expression on my face, but deep inside, it hurts me so much. i would just love for her to stay for a year, if we get her dog back and she gets her driver's license, then she would be all good, but it's along time since school starts and she doesn't have any friends, and she says she doesn't like it when guys or people in general stare at her while she's walking in the mall. So many people have hit on her it's not even funny. I tell her they think you're hott that's why they stare but she still doesn't like. I kno she's torn between two places and i don't wanna be selfish and she's going home, i kno it now, cause at this very moment i'm typing this my sister is down stairs telling my dad she wants to go back home, it's been about a half and hour and i don't know what to think, i wanna go down there but i don't know if i'm supposed to go to bed or not. Right now i'm just numb, i'm not looking at the keyboard as i'm typing (which i am very proud of...) so right now i'm just listening to music and typing out my feelings. I'm really scared cause if she goes i will be totally devastated! totally, completely, no doubt about it. and all my dad can say is.......ok. I would put a crying smilie face but i don't know how to do that and i don't feel like looking in the smilie face index thing. I am bored, sad, and worried, and i wanna go to bed but i can't. I am literally falling asleep in my chair. I'm not listening to sad music i'm just listening to what's on the radio, commercials and all. I'm sitting in the chair in my room that has a clear view to the hallway and staircase, so that if my sister comes up the stairs i would know, right away.

I'm really, really, really scared. I really, really, really don't want me sister to leave. I am only 50% without her and knowing that there is a huge chance that she's leaving i'm not 100% even when she's here. But still, none the less, we have fun. I can't cry, i'm done crying, i've cryed enough, my tear ducks (or however you spell it) are numb, they can't cry anymore, but watch them feel painful and stingy when she walks out the door. I'm getting teary eyed just thinking about it.....but she's here so i can't talk anymore.....

Talk to me, tell me how YOU feel about this....

MY SISTER IS COMING TO LIVE WITH US AT 8:00 PM TONIGHT!!!! WOOOOOOOO!!! YEAH!!!

We have a chance to go to Tampa, Florida for a tournament, but i don't think our team is gonna go, just because we aren't ready. This is our first time together and we've made it this far together but, our team is starting to break up already. That's why when i hear next year we can take you guys across the country and stuff because i know there won't be a next time the way our team is acting off the court.

So my friends and I have made this idea of getting our whole team together and the people who want to have a sleepover can and we are gonna have like some s'mores and stuff and then we are gonna have like this confession area so that, well I kno that a lot of people talk about a lot of other people so yeah. we are gonna have that area and stuff like that. my friend has a huge and awesome backyard an stuff. we are thinking of having like all these stations and stuff and then they can go to like each one whenever they want.

I hope this works and doesn't back fire on us. Cause you know how it could be like oh you said that about me i'm not gonna be your friend anymore or i'm not gonna talk to you anymore, or maybe something worse, i'm not gonna pass the ball to you anymore. So i can't wait just to see how it's gonna turn out so that we can have a next year you know?

WISH US LUCK!

Summer vacation here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate eating sooo much it's not even funny, if i could go forever without eating I would. I'm inventing a food patch the has a small needle at the end of the patch so the food can go into the blood stream and then you could "eat" on the move. simple as that.